Day 2

Day one went fine. I thought I felt hungry about 9:30am and then I realized it just felt like a void, an empty space that I wasn't used to. I didn't have a break until after 11 and I didn't feel particularly fussed to have a lemon drink or not, but once I did it really felt warming and like strength that I hadn't missed yet was coming back. It was a cold day for landscaping and it poured rain all day. I was able to finish up by 2:00 and come home to chill out which was much needed. I ended up having a nap by about 5 for 45 min and that felt good! I had my hair done at 7:30 and took a double drink with me. My drink schedule was 6am, 7, 11:15, 2, 3:30, 6, 7, 8 for 8 cups total yesterday.

Forgot to weigh myself to begin with, but I came up in weight recently because last night I weighed 138lbs. I thought I was about 135, but I must have been more the 140.

I really felt fairly normal yesterday considering I had no food. The smell of food was much stronger to me in the evening. Walking by the Nest it smelled like steak and smelled fantastic. It is going to be hard to cook for Nathan and not lick my finger or eat that litle scrap from his food.  Tom is going away to the cabin today for 3 days and it will be just Nathan and I. I think it will be much easier to just make Nathan some things and get n with our day. How much time we spend buying, planning, prepping, cooking and cleaning up from food. Our whole life revolves around it. There are times when it really seems like a hassle to eat. Mostly when we are travelling and need to grab something quick. I don't like the stuff you can grab quick, and can't eat most of it.

I was cold yesterday after I came home from Van and it was hard to warm up. I was feeling the cool a bit more last night and ended up at 11 getting up to put an afgan over my covers and I think just getting out of bed got the blood flowing as I was asleep again right away. If I am a little cold, I can't sleep.

I did have a couple of moments with the crew yesterday morning that I handled poorly more than anything. Which made it go even worse from there. I think things were recouped by the time we got to Vancouver for work, but I need to be able to deal with situations rationally as it all gets me mad and then I get more resistance because I am being a bitch. I have been having alot of trouble dealing with them in general. Mostly because they are not landscapers and I need experienced people. Also I don't see them putting in any extra effort to work hard. I have to work harder to make up for what they can't do and it would go along ways for them to even walk fast instead they look like they are wandering around

This morning I woke up very tired and had some cramps and rumbling in my bowels. Salt water flush will sort that out I hope. As I wait for that I will make Nathan's lunch.? Is this a good idea?

I have a easy day today, just set up the crew and I can come home. I have a meeting at noon and can work my day as it falls into place.